It’s not a fun thing to be short I tell you. Over the years I’ve grown a thick skin to certain things pertaining to my height.
P:S. I’m not even sure. All I know is I’m between 5”2 and 5”4. Like someone tweeted, ”That’s really short” IKR! I couldn’t care less. All I want now is some T.D.H dude to literally sweep me off my feet.
Anyways to the subject of the matter, I’ve really had to endure a lot of things from my father to absolute strangers. And so I’ve decided to talk about it or rather write about it..
First off, it’s the quirks
Before I finished high school, I made up my mind I wasn’t gonna get my degree in Nigeria. So I did everything possible, wrote all necessary exams and all. I almost didn’t wanna write JAMB. I was convinced my dad would let me travel. Lo and behold, after grad, we tabled the request before him expectant [worst mistake ever! I should have eloped]. What would he say, ”I was too small”. Jesus!!!!! Mind you I was already legal then, eligible for an accommodation and a passport. Smh. My mum had even taught me the rudiments of travelling and living alone. Sigh. My world crashed! I couldn’t accept it.. I mean, after all the exams. Sigh. For months, I stayed away from him and became self absorbed. I couldn’t forgive him. Yes! It was a big deal! Still is.
In my entire life, I never taught I would be subjected to bullying mostly from guys, especially my cousins. I don’t even know where to start from. Is it from ruining my cooking skills with their ridiculous insinuations. Or from the guy at the supermarket playing pranks on me because he thinks he can. Or for the random junkie on the street harassing me? Sigh. I could go on and on.
In the midst of my friends, I’m sort of the smallest so they barely take me serious.
I can’t wear long dresses without looking like a drag.
I think I speak for everyone[In my height bracket] when I say we(myself inclusive) suffer from short-man syndrome. We tend to be perceived as snobs when in actual fact we try to avoid being taken for granted. There’s something about shortness and levity. Some people think they can get away with being disrespectful. Smh
No one ever believes my age but are so quick to assume and assign any ridiculous age that they feel suits my height hence the makeup and accessories. I sort of have to make an extra effort in my appearance so as to avoid unnecessary stares and enquiries.
Speaking of stares,I think it’s just inevitable especially in social gatherings hence the 6” platforms.
We’re not entitled to any other adjective rather than ”cute”. In other others, short/small/portable is synonymous with cute. Now I absolutely have no problem with that. Just please compliment me with a different and pleasant adjective. Thank you in advance.
On the flip side
It’s been great I guess. I’ve learnt to accept and appreciate myself. I don’t even remember most of the time. I don’t dwell on it.. I’m so huggable and carry-able. I’m portable and loving it to pieces. I get more shoe gifts because my size is readily avaliable. Same with clothing. I’ve even stopped hoping/praying for an increase in height. I’ve just accepted my fate. I hope I eventually find a place in my heart to forgive my Grandma.[Yeah, she totally handed down her genes. That’s the only plausible explanation].And I’ve hardly had issues with my self-esteem or confidence.
But honestly I don’t think I’ve had any fantastic experience yet. I’m yet to fully grasp the fact that I probably might now grow any taller but that’s fine really. God has a plan and purpose for every single thing.
Always and Forever